12/29/10

you never promised me...



...but everytime you ask me to
trust you
you do,

...and I cry at night,
and you said it'll be alright...
and it did, and you do,

...you never promised to
be there when I need, but you
made me feel, things you do

...and I'm alright when you
give petals, rather instead, because
that's the way you do...

...I'm okay when you
tease me, laugh and roll,
because that's the way I do

...and we play like
kids, and we dance, and we climb
everytime, me, you

...you only asked me to
wait, until the blessed day
comes, and and we walk, me, you

...you only want me to
trust the things you do
to wait, and wait, with you

...you never promised
but you did when
it's you I saw, and kissed
and tell me I DO...

12/28/10

A Secret Waiting....

Have I been here?
Something I remember,
Somewhere in this place
Someone's beautiful face....

Have I sat down here?
In this garden, over here
Somewhere in time
Sometime, in October?

Where meadows I used to lay
Where trees, I freely sway
Somewhere in this garden
But where us that "some-when"?..

Wandering here, dancing
Singing , jumping, hovering ...around
Why am I forgetting?
Somewhere in this place, is a place forbidden?

Where the gates Houdini cannot pass
But oh! What a surprise!
Someone opened what has
been the most forbidden task!

What secret do you keep? I want to know
My heart I open, spread wide in the meadows
What secret do you have, I want to know, I'd love to know...

Have I been in this place...enchanting?
Somewhere in time, a secret something...
But what does a child know? ..nothing!
But my heart...it keeps waiting.... AND WAITING....

12/9/10

if

what have become of me.
so selfish now.

what will become of me.
if i move away.

what will happen then.
if.

11/27/10

In my Bed

In my weakest hour, when my heart faints and my soul fading
When no more warmth of the day's hand to me may bring
And my only breath, in pain I'm howling, screaming
And in this bed, in pain, in sickness, I'm lying

My head I turn, trees with birds churning,
No longer old I am, nor child, nor dancing, nor running
Not any strength to even lift my body, excruciating,
In this bed, in pain, in sickness, I'm lying

To You I want to run, dear Mother, ever so loving
So pure of Your love, Your sacred, Your caressing
Your light in this day where darkness to me, prevailing
My weak soul and temple, to You, I'm praying

Dear Mother, health of all the sick, most sacred Mother of all
May Your touch be of grace to this body in weakness, I'm praying
Light in this darkest hour, hope of my soul
I lay in this bed, no more pain, nor sicknes, I'm living

11/17/10

will we ever meet?

will our worlds ever break the barriers? when everybody else is just as stationary as a stone?

i want to be with you....

10/13/10

paapalA

ALAPAAP

ating mga pangarap...

sabay nating abutin

katulad ng mga mayang sa tin sumasabay

liparin natin muli ang himpapawid

at sana bukas, sa bawat araw natin

sa agos ng mapaglarong buhay..

hawak kamay, lumipad tayong sabay

ang pagmamahal

ang init ng araw,

nadarama ko, nadarama mo,

ang ganda ng luntiang mundo

natatanaw mo, natatanaw ko

nawawala ang takot, pangamba

masaya palang lumipad kasama mo,

malakas na hangin, tayo'y nadadala

lumilipad, malaya

ALAPAAP


Nakasilay

sa salamin kung saan

umaagos ang tubig
Parang walang hanggan

sa pagdaloy ang lungkot

sa dibdib

Nakamasid

sa taong tangging nakakaunawa

sa saloobing lihim
Magkasing lungkot kapag nag-iisa

Malayo sa kanyang piling...


Oras at araw

pinapalipas sa silyang

nililok ng pagkakataon
Pagkakataong pilit na hinahabol
Baka sakaling

masalo

mga sandaling ipinagkait
Makita't madama
Iniisip,
Ginuguhit,
Sinusulat...
Sa pag-iisa

Isang alamat

na nagbuhat sa 'di mapagtagpong

daigdig
Sa isang hiblang pag-ibig

lamang kumakapit


Paulit-uit na binabasa ang akdang iginuhit
Na baka minsan, sa pang sanibong ulit
Makita katagang bubuhay sa ngiting hindi makamit


Nakamasid pa rin sa salaming dinadaluyan ng walang katapusang pagtingin
Tulad ng pag-asang walang patid ang pag-agos sa pusong angkin
Narito pa rin, habang siya'y naroon
Hinihintay pa rin ang pagdating ng kanyang unang pagtingin...

…………………………………..DITO

7/2/10

tanong tanong tanong

bakit ba
masama magtanong
mali ba na naisin alamin kung bakit
paano ba ang magtanong
nang hindi nakakasakit

hindi naman ako ipinanganak
na alam na ang lahat
bakit ba sa buka ng aking bibig
latigo na lang ang hinaharap

hindi ba ako maaaring
magsalita ng malaya
ng ayon sa naiisip ko?

bakit ba palagi na lang
may mga hindi ninanais

ang aking tinatanong?

himbing

tahimik
sa lalim ng gabi
sa tunog ng mga kuliglig
walang nakakarinig
sa lilim ng mga kumot
sa ibabaw ng mga unan
mahimbing

4/22/10

silence

i need to hear what silence is
for in silence i hear myself
innermost, isolated
apart, away, alone

i need to feel what silence is
for in silence i feel myself
unconsoled, in solitude
breathing in lengthy rhythms

i need to be in silence
like a child inside a womb
for in there
i find peace

4/16/10

Nasaan ba ang iyong daigdig?
Maaari bang masilayan?
Maaari bang makita ko
ang mundong iyong kinagisnan?

Paano ba matatahak ang landas
patungo sa iyong kaharian
Maaari ko bang masilip
Ang iyong mukha kahit minsan?

Maaari bang ako'y patuluyin sa iyong daigdig?
Nais ko sanang mahawakan ang iyong katauhan
Maaari bang ako'y iyong makilala kapag nariyan na,
Maaari bang ako'y iyong yakaping mahigipit hanggang sa kawalang-hanggan?

Taimtim, sa pagpikit ng yaring mga mata
Sa gabi, kung kailan bumubulong sa langit at mga tala
Dinarasal, na sana, sa pagdilat ng mga mata
Sa bagong umaga, natagpuan na kita....

3/17/10

isang minutong awit

paano ko ba lalapatan ng marikit na salita ang himig na
umaagos mula sa bukal na simbusilak
ng puso ng bagong luwal na paslit sa mundong napupuno ng
kaguluhan,

na sa tuwing aking maririnig, nais kong sabayan ng awit
paano ko ba lalapatan ng matamis na salita
ang himig ng lira mula sa kaibuturan ng bukal na puno ng
kabutihan

paano ko ba isasalarawan sa isang minutong awit
o sa lima, o sa sampu, o sa labindalawang oras at saglit
ang kalahatan ng iyong inialay, dalisay
sa kin, iyong buhay

mapagbibigyan mo bang ika'y aking awitan, pasalamatan
hagkan habang aking inaawitan
yaon lamang ang tangi kong paraan, na iyong pag ibig
matugunan...

2/25/10

Naturally the Same

as i was walking down the mem'ry lane this morning
i saw a glimpse of everybody's face and oh
i saw the pictures moving oh so fast
we're running free
we're running free
hey!

we've known each other for quite too long, so long ago
we've had our differences, clashing through our skins
they thought we'll never get along
but oh they're wrong
but oh they're wrong
no way!

this is the Chronicle, the story of our lives
we may be different but we know that inside we share a heart
we live as one,
but we're naturally the same.

had our obstacles our hearts had bled, it never stops
we laugh we cry, we share our fears, we don't know why
cosmic connections tie us up together
and we know
now we know

this is our history, a chronicle of love
we know we're different but we are free, we live a life
it may be blurred
it may be different
but we're naturally the same

2/14/10

alapaap

lumilipad, malaya
malakas na hangin, tayo'y nadadala
masaya palang lumipad kasama mo,
nawawala ang takot, pangamba
natatanaw mo, natatanaw ko
ang ganda ng luntiang mundo
nadarama ko, nadarama mo,
ang init ng araw,
ang pagmamahal
hawak kamay, lumipad tayong sabay
sa agos ng mapaglarong buhay..
at sana bukas, sa bawat araw natin
liparin natin muli ang himpapawid
katulad ng mga mayang sa tin sumasabay
sabay nating abutin
ang alapaap
ating mga pangarap...


--taco & dill, Feb.14.2010
and he wrote ...

...like the sunrise, like the sunset
like the wind of melodies inside my head
like all the lovely creatures herein
like the waters running to the ocean
like the dewdrops in the morning rain
wherever, whenever
that's how i love
like a poem lost in centuries
like a lovely, like a cherry smile
like a poem so beautiful to me
i fell in love with thee...

2/12/10

i couldn't think of any gift
but to have all these words written down...
you might have read them,
you might have not,
for not all of these stay inside my mind..
i might have let you feel it, i might have said
i might have not
you might not know it, but
there's nothing more special in this life
than having you here beside
there's no greater moment now
than with you alive
you might not know it, i might not have said
the gifts you give, big or not
it doesn't really matter
what is a pound of gold
without your forever?
so for this day
may i tell you, that for now
until all the universe allow
i'm giving you my eternal vow

I love you

IHIP

kahapon lang tayo'y mga batang nagtatakbuhan sa gitna
ng malawak na bukirin
tumatangis sa tuwing nasusugatan, tumatayo at naglalarong muli..
magkakaibang nagkatagpo, nagkasundo, naglalaro,
nakikipaglaro sa tadhanang malabo,
minsang naging isa sa mga hangarin, pangarap,
natagpuan na sa kabila ng pagkakaiba
tayo'y may pagkakahawig pala..

sa pag ihip ng hangin unti unting napapansin
nagkakaiba iba na yata
unti unti nagkakalayo, naglilihim, nagtatago,
hanggang magising ako isang
araw
hindi na pala ikaw, hindi na pala siya,
hindi na pala, tulad nung mga bata pa..

nagising akong may luha
bakit ba hindi nadama
mga buhay natin ay nagbago
hindi na pala mga bata
tayo'y tumanda na pala.....

Untitled 3

He found her under the sun
..chasing souls lost in the wild
..running at daytime, fighting in the night
..seeking courage from the world she's suddenly in..

He found her like a child
..full of innocence, full of faith
..filled with laughter amidst the pain
..like an angel, like a izar

He found her like a diamond
..like an oracle, a sweetheart
..a baby wrapped inside the earth's arms
..an assassin, a knight

He found her like the sunshine
..an averain, a peaceful disaster
..a sorceress, a great hunter
..wrapped inside his loving arms

He will find her, soon, after this time
..he will find her, and she will, for her very first time
..she will love him now, in heart, in mind
..time starts counting, they shall meet eye to eye.

ILOG

this air reminds me of summer,
that one summertime
sometime ago, five years before
that one summertime, a lifetime